Two Years Ago

Two years ago today our sweet angel returned to his father in heaven. Not a day goes by that you are not on my mind and in my heart. I love you so much sweetie!

If You Could See Where I have Gone

If you could see where I have gone, the beauty fo this place,
And how it feels to know you're home, to see the Savior's face.
To wake in peace and know no fear, just joy beyond compare,
While still on earth you miss me yet, You wouldn't want me there.

If you could see where I have gone, had made the trip with me.
You'd know I didn't go alone, the Savior came with me.
When I awoke, He was by my side, and reaching down His hand,
Said, "Hurry child, you're going home, to a grand and glorious land.
Don't worry over those you love, for I'm not just with you.
And don't you know with you at home, they'll long to be here, too?"

If you could see where I have gone, and see what I've been shown.
You'd never know another fear or ever feel alone.
You'd marvel at the care of God. His hand on every life;
And realize He really cares, and bears with us each strife;
And that He weeps when one is lost. His heart is filled with pain.
But, oh, the joy when one comes home, a child home again.

If you could see where I have gone, could stay awhile with me;
Could share the things that God has made to grace eternity.
But, no, you couldn't ever leave. Once heaven's joys you'd known.
You couldn't bear to walk earth's paths again, once heaven was your home.

If you could see where I have gone. You'd know we'll meet someday.
And though I'm parted from you now, that I am just away.
So thank you, friends- thank you family for living for the Lord.
For teaching me to love Him, to trust Him and His word.
And now that I'm home with Him, secure in every way,
I'm waiting here at heaven's door- to greet you some sweet day.

Happy Birthday!

Well today would of been Cole's second birthday. Having just finished Drew's and Hudson's there is a huge part in me wishing that I was having another party today. There is not a day that goes by that I wish I could see a third little boy running crazy around my house. The struggles of raising children are real but my desire to have him here with us is stronger. It gets harder sometime, as time goes by. I find myself yearing for those last days with him and wanting just one more day. Sometimes it is hard to believe that I even had him and lost him so quickly so I think back to that November and the wave of emotions come over me. To me he is still my son, and I want to shout out to everyone that I have three boys. I often lay in bed imagining that he is in my arms along with his brothers. I know that he is near, but as life gets busy it becomes harder to feel him. I miss him at times like this so much! It breaks my heart that every year Drew thinks that he is coming back from Heaven and that he is going to have another baby to play with. I truly feel that Drew and him had a close relationship. For Drew to remember and feel so much at two years old when Cole died is truly remarkable. Here is to you little man! Happy Birthday Cole! I am giving you a huge hug and kissing your sweet forehead. I love you so much and am so proud and blessed to be your mommy! Hugs and kisses forever!

2011 Cole's Yard Sale Fundraiser!!

I want to plan a yard sale in behalf of Cole. The money collected will be donated to Primary Children's Medical Center to hopefully help another family with the medical costs of having a child as a patient there. I thought if I started to collect things now, it will be a great sucess, come next summer. Please help! I am willing to store everything donated throughout the year in my house. Now is the time of year when many families are going through clothing and tossing what doesn't fit anymore. Instead of taking it elsewhere, please let me collect those items so the yeard sale will be a sucess. Thank you for all of your love and support!!

Edwin's Tale

Nick and I had the wonderful opportunity of attending Peter Breinholt's Christmas concert this holiday season. While there it occured to me that some of you might not know exactly why we have Edwin's Tale as a music choice on Cole's blog. It is about a soldier at war. We first heard the song on Cole's blog a few days before he died. Luke's beautiful wife Hollie, put this all together and it immediately captured how we felt, while going through everything with Cole.
All around us huge history making events were happening around us. The war in Iraq, Presidential elections and even just everyday drama. And here we were in this tiny room with our son, praying that he would live. The importance and purpose of life, profoundly made it clear to me. I didn't know what was happening with those outside of our room, and at that point, I didn't care. It wasn't important. All that mattered was the time that we had left with Cole. The first few weeks preceding and after his death, I felt at times that I couldn't breathe. When the doctors came and gave us the news I was crushed. I felt my life closing in around on me, and yet in those moments of sorrow, I knew that somehow, in some way everything was going to be alright. Cole's spirit was and is so strong to this day. There hasn't been a day yet, that I haven't felt him by my side. He is so kind to me. And still everyday is different. Some are harder than others, but I know that he is in his Father's arms, and keeping his promise to stay by my side. We love you buddy! Happy 2 month birthday tomorrow!! xoxo Mommy

Thank You!

We wanted to thank everyone for all of their love and support! Cole was such an amazing person, and we are blessed to be his parents. It means so much to us that so many people posted their love and support. I truly feel that is why we have been able to have an eternal perspective on everything and have kept our heads up.
To those of you who didn't have a chance to meet and hold Cole, I am sorry. He was the most beautiful baby ever. His tiny hands were constantly being poked from various IV's but he didn't complain a bit. He loved to keep his clubbed little feet tucked up by his bottom and would pull them back up if you tried to stretch them out. He kept his eyes shut the whole time the few days that he was here. I think he was tired from working so hard so live, but Nick and I and our parents had an amazing experience the last few hours that we spent with with him. Slowly he started to open one eye and then the other, like he was taking little peeks at us and seeing if we were there. We will forever treasure those sacred moments.
As a mother I long to hold him in my arms again. To those of you who have children, you know of their distint smell, and at times I smell him and tears come to my eyes. I have had my days where I ache to have him here with us, but try to keep in mind the eternal perspective. Although this has been the hardest thing that we have had to go through, Nick and I both feel blessed to have eachother, our families and the gospel. We know that everything happens for a reason and are grateful for the teachings which we have received through this. We thought that some of you might enjoy seeing some more pictures of Cole, so I have put them up in a slide show. I wish that we could personally thank each of you for your support. Please know that we appreciate each and everyone of you. We love you! Love Nick and Janessa

Obituary For Cole and Funeral Arrangements

Cole Gary Whatcott
Cole Gary Whatcott 11/4/2008~11/10/2008 Cole Gary Whatcott, our sweet angel sent from Heavenly Father, returned home after a six day inspirational fight for life on November 10, 2008. Cole was born on November 4, 2008 and he immediately captured the hearts of all who came in contact with him. His true Christ-like spirit will always be remembered and cherished. His valiant fight was something to behold and was an example to many as to the passion we should have for life. Though his mortal stay was short and he will be missed, his spirit impacted our lives in ways we cannot ever forget. He inspired us to be better people. Cole helped us to reach out, to be kinder and gentler to each other. He was able to show us in his own special way how to become more like the Savior. The sweet spirit of this newborn baby was as powerful and large as any man. He was truly a valiant being from on high and will be remembered for his brave and courageous heart. Cole inspired us to live a better Christ-like life filled with love and that will be his legacy to us all. We love you baby Cole and we will always remember you. Thank you for your love and time spent with us. We will miss you. Survived by his proud Parents; Nick and Janessa Whatcott, Brother; Drew Whatcott; Grandparents Gary and Pam Whatcott, Jerry and Jeann Morrison, and many uncles, aunts and numerous cousins. We give special thanks to the doctors and nurses who attended to him with such tenderness and love through the hands of God at St. Marks NICU, Life Flight, and Primary Children's Hospital. Thank you all for your generosity, love and donations. A viewing will be held on Friday, November 14, 2008, from 10 a.m. to 11:45 a.m. at the LDS Copper Oaks Chapel 14583 S. Juniper Crest Road, Herriman, UT. Funeral services will be held on Friday, November 14, 2008, at 12 p.m. at the LDS Copper Oaks Chapel. Interment, Redwood Memorial Cemetery, 6500 S. Redwood Road, West Jordan, Utah. In lieu of flowers, please donate to the Cole Whatcott Charitable Fund at any America First Credit Union. In memory of Cole: www.colewhatcott.blogspot.com